Melodies in the wind

Life

2011-02-17T04:44:00.000-08:00

HEY! Hey, hey LIFE,

i just wanted to say... well, umm.... this is hard to share...

FUCK YOU. :)

HATRED? not really

2011-02-05T06:16:00.000-08:00

OH HOW MUCH I HATE MYSELF.
i have EVERYTHING that a person would want. Great family, great friends, i live in a great place in a great house, having a great education. BUT I JUST CANT FUCKING DO ANYTHING.
I JUST WANNA CRY MY HEART OUT
BUT I CANT
AND I AM SOOO FUCKING PISSED OFF AT EVERYONE.
I CANT DO ANY WORK.
I AM THE MOST STUPID PERSON ON EARTH.
FUCK. MY. FUCKING. WONDERFUL. LIFE

FML literally.

2011-02-05T05:05:00.001-08:00

Fuck My Life Mode: ON
Someone please help me to turn it off, OFF button is broken.

Feelings fully described.

2011-01-15T01:48:00.000-08:00

'Damn my situation and the games I have to play

With all the things caught in my mind

Damn my education I can't find the words to say

About all the things caught in my mind'

Oasis

Anti-Facebook

2011-01-15T01:47:00.000-08:00

People, i know its very addicting, and you want to go online all the time. But try getting a life please. What I did was, give my facebook account password to a close friend to change it, then change my email adress to his. So i couldnt even check what people did from my email. it was quite depressing for 2-3 days BUT after, i started doing useful stuff. Like playing my piano more often, listening to music and searching for its lyrics, going running or swimming.
Yes, it helps... Just do it for 1 week. and you'll see how good it feels for not going on it, and you become proud of yourself after :D

yeah.

sometimes

2011-01-15T01:41:00.000-08:00

sometimes, all you want to do is listen to music and think. think about everything and anything that comes to your mind. even the most random things. the thoughts are usually the regrets, sometimes thoughts about future. but usually regrets. 'i wish's i wish, i didnt do that, i wish i had done that. time is gone, too late.

you look outside, as if there is something pleasant to see. there is just another tall building right in front of your fucking face. but your looking outside. as if there is an infinite road there to make you dream about. no, there is an humongous building, standing there, blocking your view to the nowhereness.

Oasis is the best band to listen to then. Defiantly choose Oasis. Put all the songs that you have on your computer to the player and let it play there. Repeat, repeat and repeat all over again. there is nothing wrong by doing this.
you need to be on your own sometimes, you and your own world and the people who are in your world only, even if there is only 1 person living at that moment. its you and him/her.

Oasis- Wonderwall
Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do about you now

Backbeat the word was on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody feels
The way I do about you now

And all the roads we have to walk along are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
I don't know how

Because maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me ?
And after all
You're my wonderwall

Today was gonna be the day?
But they'll never throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you're not to do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do
About you now

And all the roads that lead to you were winding
And all the lights that light the way are blinding
There are many things that I would like to say to you
I don't know how

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me ?
And after all
You're my wonderwall

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me ?
And after an
You're my wonderwall

Said maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
You're gonna be the one that saves me
You're gonna be the one that saves me

maybe this song will save you...
its okay, its a nice feeling that you get while dreaming with the songs. take a 1 hour shower. it helps, trust me.
only songs of a specific band that you dont usually listen their songs but enjoy when listened.

Moving on...

2010-10-23T08:11:00.000-07:00

You alone have to deal with your pain. You just have to. You have to move on. coz no matter what the world just doesn't stop its movement for you, you just have to move on like others. You'll always be behind otherwise.

even if ur hurt, cut by a knife, lost a leg, you have to move on... You just, have to you know? Coz life's never fair, you might think its more of a fair life for some other people but its not, everybody has deep cuts inside... it might seem like he lost an arm for someone while another person might think its just a small cut... nobody cares or knows if you're hurt or not, so moving on is the best... Never say i can't live anymore... Coz u can, you will anyways. Time doesnt stop for you so make it quick. put a band-aid on your cut and move on... coz you just have to, you will...

What's the worst thing is i know all these things and still stand there, keep bleeding even though i have the strength to get up, i dont, i stay there, im not bothered on getting a band-aid even though i know ill feel better. What can you do?

R.E.M losing my religion

2010-10-23T00:01:00.000-07:00

I'm literally addicted to this song these days, i hope i won't get bored after coz it's such a good song, dont you agree?

Oh, life is bigger
It's bigger than you
And you are not me
The lengths that I will go to
The distance in your eyes
Oh no, I've said too much
I set it up

(chorus)
That's me in the corner
That's me in the spotlight, I'm
Losing my religion
Trying to keep up with you
And I don't know if I can do it
Oh no, I've said too much
I haven't said enough
I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you try

Every whisper
Of every waking hour I'm
Choosing my confessions
Trying to keep an eye on you
Like a hurt lost and blinded fool, fool
Oh no, I've said too much
I set it up
Consider this
Consider this
The hint of the century
Consider this
The slip that brought me
To my knees failed
What if all these fantasies
Come flailing around
Now I've said too much
I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you try

But that was just a dream
That was just a dream

(repeat chorus)

But that was just a dream
Try, cry, why try?
That was just a dream
Just a dream, just a dream
Dream

Autumn

2010-10-21T11:40:00.000-07:00

I love autumn the most.
The feeling of soft cotton jackets and the scarfs with matching hats. The different kind of boots, long, leather. The smell of the cold wind blowing right on your face making your nose pink. And the feeling of wind coming and going through one then the other ear.
Yellow, orange and red leaves poured on the roads and the nice crunchy sound that comes to your ears in every step of yours.
Love. The best time. Too much to think about. Slow music in my headphones. You. If you're there...
The small drum kit next to my heart, starts beating a little harsher and louder. Makes me smile.
All the songs i listen to, all the movies i watch, all the books i read, and you.
The clouds blocking the sun away, the darkness, rush and the stress in everybody's eyes. Love.
The 'bad' weather.
Loving all. ALL.

- and living in Dubai... Loving it but... Autumn, you're missing.

The bus ride to school

2010-10-21T08:45:00.000-07:00

You know sometimes, when you wake up, and think 'Oh God, it's gonna be a looong day'. 'I have a math test today and i have studied but i don't think i'll remember anything coz i have studied till 3 o'clock.' even if the weather is sunny and nice it would seem like the fog is till the ground and you can see nothing, absolutely nothing.
and this guy in your bus way school, makes your day. Somehow, when you don't even think of laughing or even a little smiling that day. He just has a really goood sense of humor, but only for that day let's say. You don't laugh at his jokes too much any other day, but only that day, you literally laugh your ass off.
And you know how some people, as you laugh at their jokes, make jokes even funnier coz they like the fact that you laugh? Yeah so you laugh the hardest you have ever since the teacher told you about the math test on the topic you really don't know too well.
He makes your day. And you make his, maybe...
Then the math test is put on your desk, you're away from your friends in the class and the long silence with only the tapping of calculator buttons, everybody is concentrated and you can feel the stress through the air coming from the air conditioner with the wounding sound that never stops.
You look at your test and the first thing that comes to you're mind is 'SHIT' after 5-10 minutes you are doing okay with the calculations, but still not enough. You go out of the class, half happy that its over still stressed of failing and there is this strange look on you're face between relieved and stressed. And that same guy comes up to you and says 'What happened to your face?' you feel that everybody's eyes are on you at that moment and you start laughing so loudly and getting all the stress vanish from your body...
Amazing feeling.
At the end, you go home happy but tired of the mixture of feelings that you had that day but still HAPPY :)

Thanks bus buddy :)

Alice Cooper

2010-10-20T09:35:00.000-07:00

Poison-Alice Cooper

Your cruel device
Your blood, like ice
One look could kill
My pain, your thrill

I want to love you but I better not touch (Don't touch)
I want to hold you but my senses tell me to stop
I want to kiss you but I want it too much (Too much)
I want to taste you but your lips are venomous poison
You're poison running through my veins
You're poison, I don't want to break these chains

Your mouth, so hot
Your web, I'm caught
Your skin, so wet
Black lace on sweat

I hear you calling and it's needles and pins (And pins)
I want to hurt you just to hear you screaming my name
Don't want to touch you but you're under my skin (Deep in)
I want to kiss you but your lips are venomous poison
You're poison running through my veins
You're poison, I don't wanna break these chains
Poison

One look could kill
My pain, your thrill
I want to love you but I better not touch (Don't touch)
I want to hold you but my senses tell me to stop
I want to kiss you but I want it too much (Too much)
I want to taste you but your lips are venomous poison
You're poison running through my veins
You're poison, I don't wanna break these chains
Poison

I want to love you but I better not touch (Don't touch)
I want to hold you but my senses tell me to stop
I want to kiss you but I want it too much (Too much)
I want to taste you but your lips are venomous poison, yeah
I don't want to break these chains
Poison, oh no
Runnin' deep inside my veins,
Burnin' deep inside my veins
It's poison
I don't wanna break these chains
Poison

I love this song so much. <3

Just never would think i would love a song that a person like him sings :D

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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qq4j1LtCdww

Story of a friend...

2010-10-20T09:04:00.000-07:00

Hey there!

Well i just wanted to share my opinions about a friend's story.

I think it's a nice story...

I'm sorry its a little long but trust me this was the shortest it could get.

Here we go:

My friend's name is Rebecca. It was last year when we were 14… She went to a friend’s football match. She was quite pissed off at some other girls that couldn’t decide where to go, so she went to see one of his best friends football match, and because it was only 1 hour, they decided to go a little early to talk and have a nice chat like they always do… Her friend is called Jacob. He introduced Rebecca to his friends in the team and there was a Brazilian guy there as well who was called Thiago(16). They only said hi to eachother in Portuguese and that was all they talked about. She told me about this and how they had a nice chat with Jacob who made her calm down. Then after 2 months or maybe 3 (I’m not really sure) Thiago added Rebecca on facebook and apparently they started chatting. He asked for her number and msn address. After these looong chats, they went out once and in the second date they started going out. But they never saw eachother during these 2-3 months.

Rebecca is a really nice friend of mine, but… I mean she can be dead stupid sometimes… I even told her this but she said she ‘loves’ him.

They don’t even know eachother properly and they haven’t talked face-to-face except that little hi.
He asked her out the first time they were chatting so this must mean something.
The only do till the weekend is chat + text. ALL THE TIME. She came to school and copied my work most of the time. Apparently the guy did not like talking on the phone! Just say you don’t have guts to say it! Usually people are afraid of talking face-to-face, which I think is ALREADY stupid, and this guy cant even talk on the phone. Now, you tell me readers, how much can you expect from this guy?
He asks her out on msn! ON MSN! What the hell is this? A man should be brave enough to ask the one he ‘likes’, at least that.
She accepts in the end, its not the guys fault, he found her innocent and told some ‘sweet’ things and you know? Rebecca never had a boyfriend before him. And its pretty normal that she fell right away for the person who says sweet and flirty things, coz she has never had them before. This was the first experience of hers.
They go out for 4-5 months. She says never ever talks when they meet and all they do is make out and kiss for 4 hours with some breaks, and then he gets some guts to tell he loves her and he always misses her. Well who wouldn’t be getting guts to say I love you after a long make out?! My innocent nice friend believes this guy at the beginning but only after 4-5 months of this she actually realises how this relation was stupid.
Thereforeee she tries to break up with him… well, what can I say? She doesn’t have any guts either, and because she once thought of breaking up with him, everything he does botheres her… when I say everything I mean EVERYTHING. Even when he says I love you, which is probably the only conversation they have about (I love you, I miss you, I wanna hug you right now, I wanna kiss you…). She was so depressed those days actually for 2 weeks, she kept saying she would break up when the final exams of both of them were done, but she couldn’t handle to stay that much, soo she broke up with him. ON MSN. So these ‘gutless’ people found eachother we can say.
Now she can’t understand why she went out with a guy like him. He is such a wimp. But whatever really she is fine now. But she really isn’t in the mood of having another boyfriend. She looks at the details of every guy. Even when I call out a that a guy is hot, she goes like so what? He is a retard. :D

Maybe this was the lesson to be learnt. Not to fall for guys who says sweet things to you right away and not to fall for ‘stupid guys’. So in one hand she has experienced how a relationship should not be but on the other hand, she is kind of looking for a perfect one, and I don’t believe there are any in this world. Its not like she is perfect.

I don't know how to start this

2010-10-19T12:20:00.000-07:00

Well, I've never done this before but I'm guessing this will be fun.
I would want to share my opinions and basically my life with you...
I'm not really someone who has different things to do every single day
but i think that everybody has different lives and even if it seems its nothing at that particular moment, it's too much to even talk about... :)